my desire, my secret

i thnk I hv a crush on him. I thnk I need him to accompany me. I thnk he's nice. I thnk I seekin comfort from him. I thnk n I thnk.

what's e relationship between us? I dont care. I just wanna feel I am being care for. I need a sense of security. I need someone reliable to be my guy. Geez.

Well, I have friends but not e same feeling u are seeking. Alright, I thnk too muchie. anyw, I been working fer 2weeks plus, still alive n happy except certain times. I have a grp of fun loving colleague in my dept. My bernard kOrkOr, my Da Jie Da Daphne, Her dEar Yi Yang, Mei Li Jie, MummMy n many more... there are my schmates n best friend buddy. ha. am I startin a family there? Geex

Todae came a new permenant staff for Hagger. Damn she's takin the same bus with mie n ahlong. Sh*t. There were seats, lucky us today. But ahlong gave up his seat for her, meaning i sat with her while he sat opp. us. I dont want it to be that way. To be reallly friendly... I spoke to her durin e entire bus trip.

Finally, I'm opening up to my colleagues. I'm beginning to show my true color. MuhAHahaha *evil laughters* I wanna enjoy my last 2weeks happier esp with ahlOng. Sh*t again, why must that hagger staff come between us!!!!!!!!!?????

-signed off- reluctantly bcoz I'm lost of words to describe lotsa thng that has happened.

p.s. I'm a great listener n someone who keeps lotsa secret for colleagues n friends. Geez, am piling up sh*t. Wth. What's wrong with me todae? all e sh*tty thng comin out from me. Oh. I knw e reason, I hated Jian Wei todae for deleted my emergency no. earlier on. F*cker.

He's e 1st to make me scold vulgarity. Can u imagine how hard he tried to piss me? I'm very pissed off.