What I wanted?

Recently, I been thnking thru' things about my life. I tried asking myself what I want to achieve in life? Prehaps what I want now. It's such a hard question to answer

Love:
Maybe I should not give up *neelej* neither I should presist with WKH. If fate allows, eventually I would get someone who love me. THere's no hurry to it.

Academic:
I think I shld make it a point that getting to TOP 6 JC would not be ez, if I determine not to go. I hope to get into National JC but I have to work very hard which I am not currently. Look at the rate I am going, definately can't make it. I tried. I swear I will try no matter how tough it is. This shall be my very 1st commitment in life.

Others:
Whether to go 48th CLT course, I have not deicde. I seem to be caught in a dilemma. I am not sure what is hindering me from making a decision. THere's a feeling - FEAR. What exactly am I afraid of.

It has been so long since I last heard about Wendy. If not for Kun Lin, I wouldnt have knew She & Eugene are together. I wouldnt have thot of the past. Everythng about her haunted me. I want to get rid of her out from my mind.

Lastly, Physics Prelim Practical is around the corner or just 4 days time. I hope I have done enough preparation. May god be with me. *wInK* Be confidence & stay calm. Self Motivation Self Discipline. I should start todae. Reivse!!!!!!!!!!!

Miss *neelej* alot, thot he wouldnt msg me but he did. Hope to see him soon. Hope my wish to top 6 JC shall come true (at least 1st 3 mth) n less den 12 pts fer L1R5 (both prelim & O lvl) !!!! Trying my very best.