That's your worries!?

I knew he would reply me next thing in e mornz. He didnt want to tell her because he isnt sure if it's one sided loving on his part. It wasnt the first time he's facing such a dilemma. I found out from him that this girl is 2 years older than HIM! They were from the same club. That's explain why he knew her. I guessed he must be a quiet guy in reality except to the guys. Privately, we click off well actually.

He wasnt determined in loving the girl, he was soft & weak in regards to heart matters. He said, "it was over." From that moment, I knew he has reluctantly gave up on her. It also reminds me of my lacking courage.

Well, I knew I wasnt the type of girl he would go for, I shouldnt force myself to confess to him. Especially at this moment which is a critical time for me. I wish him happiness secretly altho' I wanted him so much. It must be infatuation! It must be that way!

Until now, I knew he prefers girls to have long hair (I always wanted my long hair back), lady-like (I'm never rough except NCC forced me to) & blah blah. Honestly, I like myself more than anyone esle. I knew who I am, not what people want me to be. I think I should try forgetting him...

p.s. Let fate decides who shall be the one for me!

[ so much for my happy ending... ]