fine line between faith 'n' desire

What's faith? Things u believed in? What about desire? Things u wanted? But there's a fine line seperating them. When "faith" overtook "desire", u are some how taking dreams into reality. Whilst "desire" overtook "faith", things just turned out WRONG! It's totally horrible. That's my conclusion. I can't see NEUTRAL stand here. How could it possibly that "faith" & "desire" co-exist? Maybe I could be enlightened if somebody argue that qns.

My faith is to be with *neelej*, I thought my heart is all with him. But my desire tells me I need WKH, because I'm addicted to him. Let's imagine, if WKH & I really patched up, I will be complacent. I will start questioning myself - Do u need him? Do u love him? Maybe, I still can't let go our past. What's done, what's hurt are rooted in our heart. No way we going start afresh.

What if I am with *neelej*, life can never be more exciting with him arnd. We supported each other emotionally. I guess we make good company for each other. When I look into mirror, the smile on my face is telling me - Happiness is not far away...

Compared with situation 1 & 2, which one do u prefer to be in it? Obviously, is 2 rite? Do u seriously wanted to tie down by someone, exchanging it with your freedom? I mean is it worth to suffer when u thought u can make thngs right again?

I think it will be best to leave all these doubts answered at the end of O's. At that pt of time, I will be free from SCH-STRESS. *hOoray* If I found e right guy, I will be committed to him & definately fend off all rumour. Rumours might tear us apart! Love conquers all, dont u know? hehe...

[ If I said to u, "I been unfaithful to u." Please dont be angry. In a relationship, shldnt we be honest with each other? - Just Kidding ]