Addictive drunker?

I can't fully describe how it feel like or sumthing. I think we are both into each other again? He, known as WKH was my 1st boyfriend.

When we were both alone in the cab, with an inexperience driver. Why did I lean on his shoulder when I was tired but felt safe? Why did I hold his arm tightly when he fell onto me while the driver make a sudden turn? Why was I so afraid and worried for him when we almost meet a car accident? Why did he hesitate when the driver think I'm his gf? Why did he always assure me everything is okay?

When we were lost in Clark Quay. Several times he tried to hold my hand but hesitated. He puts his arm around my hip but let go after few second. Have he forgotten we are no longer together? Why did he always assure me everything is okay?

At the Boat Quay. Maybe it's crowded that's why he sat very near me. Why did we always whisper in front of the gang? Is it too noisy there at the pub? Why did he jealous when Chuan Bao is talking to me? Why did he feel disappointed when I ignore him? He drank a glass of beer then.

On my way home. Is it true that every guy will share their concern to any girl they see? Msg them concern and blessing? Why did he msg me? Why did he always have to make me feel jealous of him?

Backed @ home. Why did he insist we should have a talk over the phone? Why did he say he cherish his relationship? Why did he say if we could be together? Why did he think it is fate that we meet today? Why did he say he feel pain when I am not okay? Why did he feel happy when his friend question our relationship? Why did he feel proud but unhappy when his friends admire me that evening?

Before he drink and after he drank, what is the difference of his meaning? Could he be drunk? It's a large glass of beer tho.

I felt unfaithful to *neelej* tho' we aint together. I'm truly sorry.